Too Long to Be Seen

Is it really appropriate to blind your eyes with
Selfishness? Is it
clear even to your wildest feelings?

I'm not alone
I say each time
And it is quite true.
Yesterday, I was so blind
Today, tomorrow, I do and will

Believe that however, I do feel

Remorse for myself

But the regret is passing

And my solitude increases

And all that they thought would hurt me

I laugh away with my eternal smile

And I say I don't know why.

Unforgiven it might be
The soul whom I dared betray
But what is there more to do
For nothing but a silent fate?
I walk alone, though not lost
For they want to walk beside
The gate is closed, I told them once
And it was enough.
They begged and urged me to speak
The words I should not say
"My mind is one of the only confidents
I trust", and this was quite an end.

Cast Away

Hopes, where are they?
My soul hides, and another day,
I will cast away all of me,
And never take it back.

These words aren't enough
To make me forget myself
And thinking that no one kept on waiting
I retire, slowly fading.

But not before I cast away
My evils and not before I try
To be alive, just one more time
And not before I lie once more
To my eversleeping soul.

The scent of midnight hours
Has returned to me
And feeling what it should seem
I take it away, with the last beam.

Our Dying Day

The clouds are now finally gone
Though you still look sadly at me
And I feel I should be elsewhere
Not in your way

Forgive me, again and again
I should leave you, again
But you know so well
I will return in the end

So, say it, when will it happen,
When will you end this pain,
When will you fix our dying day?

You asked me to stay
For what, tell me?
I hate and envy you
'Cause you don't suffer the way I do

And say it, when will it happen?
When will you make me stay?
When will you name our dying day?

Nothing can hide it
I no longer want it
Nor do you

So tell me, when will you put an end to it
When will you lock me up?

So tell the world, you want to go
You will let go
You will escape
And you will leave me in sudden suffering
In a dark corner
Waiting for your return

The Beginning

A new story they would find
Across the starlit skies
She was kind, he did not bother
They knew not of each other

She reigned over the Infailible Land
He was king of The Darkest End
They were both young, too young to lead
Such empires, without knowing to bleed

What fantasies (they imagined

that) walked on their pavements

But at night they sat at each's window

And looked at the other shadow.

He had a princess locked in his towers

Which dreamed of their wedding in flowers

She had nothing on her mind

To bother, for she was too kind.

The window led her to a black wonder

And his view wasn't like another

He saw a building that reached the clouds,

Yet he knew not whose it was.

We Know

The depth that once let me drown--
Now it laughs at me.
I am nothing now,
A sudden fear makes me believe.

It is best to hide the shame
Caused by such distress.
We both know I cannot blame
Myself more or less.

Vain was everything I met
And you barely knew.
Even so, I can't regret
Coming back to you.

You know how weak I am now
I think we both see why.
You don't want to let me down
And neither do I.

Everything

Sometimes I have no faith or chance
No cause to make myself suffer, to offence
It scares even my darkest thoughts away
But I have to pay, of course I have to pay.

You make me find a place for me
And only a soul, and that soul is free
Unlike mine, yours has love inside
It makes me think I've never been wise.

Gentle, hopeless, I am everything
Everything, inside one heart
It was once enough,
But now, I am nothing.

Little Heartdrops

Only silent seconds I have to bear
Enough pain, I've had enough, I swear.
Closing my shattered daylight into me
I easily start to fear what I cannot see.

They are all there, heartdrops falling
Forbidden, they are calling
They've never ceased, it's clear they won't.
This time, I almost cry, and yet I don't.

My Eyes

Wandering in a lost world
And no love yet to be shown
And I keep escaping and coming back again
And never seeing this unbroken chain.

The blue depth frozen in you
Keeps loving every second that's true
And when I finally let go of you
You wish my eyes were gone through.

I cannot wait my whole life
For something I cannot even try
I'm clumsy and vain and everything you want
But let me go, I cannot be bound.

Why can't you feel my eyes
Deeply in love with yours
Why can't you realise
That they're everything I'm longing for?

And there they go, hardly awake
And keep wandering, will never break
I will never feel myself forgiven
And that is what you have forbidden.

Away from me, the world's soon gone
I'm still here, and never down
The struggle I faced is nothing compared
To your sorrow, broken by faith.

Fade Into Their Sea

Die away, with all your reasons,
Your obscurity of mind and heart
Never escape from the fearsome
Yet intelligent lies of mine.

Cast your way in every light
Enchant them all, dare to
And then let yourself go through
Wish your lonely waves good night.

Do not fall, do not let go
Think of the depth below
They may crush, but you must not
You're the one that really fought.

Blame yourself, you have to
No love is here for you
It's all given, can't get back
Surrender, never attack.

What is all with it, I shan't know
You can't draw back, neither do they
But what can you do if you must pay?
Drown and keep smiling, never say 'no'.

Do Not...

Do not hope for better day
I will crush your dreams, my dear
Don't dare to think of rain
I shall make it disappear.

Do not hope to live in silence
I will gently make you see
That your haunting decadence
Is what keeps you here.

Do not dream of me alone
There is someone you forget
Nothing for the sweet dawn
And for me, everything, yet.

So Wide the World

You are running now, locked by your sorrow
Oh, you didn't want to betray your faith
You cannot even think of the light of tomorrow
You are ashamed of being afraid.

So wide the world, you found your past
In a dark corner, waiting for the promise
You hadn't faced up, it was your last
And there you calmly waited for the demise.

Loved, unbroken, your perfect chain
She was the only one you could believe
Now she's left you, never thought of your pain
And you wonder how you will live.

So wide is the world, you will find someone else.
I am loved already, go ahead and forget
And do not even dare to stop and rest
You never now how far you can get.

Never silent, your heart pounds
And it rises, brighter than the sun
You are cursed with never healing wounds
And there you disappear, you're gone.

So wide the world, you cannot even think
And I am here, always at hand.
But this time, I'm not here to make you sink
And not even to help you, my forgotten friend.

I Died, But I'm Not Leaving

Lonely in me, they are still there
Otherwise, it wouldn't be fair.
How could I learn to face up the storm
And never back down, learn to control?

I tried to send them away, it's done.
I tried to forget my mistakes, I'm gone.
And there are always illusions to keep me alive
When I could easily fade within the sunrise.

I am there, awake and fine
The truth, it will never die.
And I cannot lie, I am lost
This is everything, a ghost.

I am forgotten, I am betrayed
I should've gone away, but I stayed.
I am sorry to disappoint your love
But I cannot leave, I'll just fly above.

Finding the Never-Told Truth

There'd been always something in your eyes
I wanted to believe in what I recognised
But I was too stubborn to reach beyond
Your shield of the truth you never told.

Lonely inside, my deep soul was free.
And you needed as well to know me
But I didn't show what I was made for
So you just passed it over.

But now I scream, cry and lie
For nothing less than a smile
But nothing's left, I need to give up
Your never-told truth you've locked up.

I must keep looking for you deep there, somehow
And yes, I love to make myself fall down.
I'll run away, someday, evaporate
And never make me feel that hate.

And if you save me from that pain
I'll make you think it's been in vain.
I deserve everything, warm or cold
Because I've never found what you've never told.

You never...

You never deserved my love,
Never had something to die for
You said we all slowly rot
While saying that you would not.

You never thought about me
And you never were free
I had to struggle within my own heart
And you weren't even taking part.

You never wanted to be mine,
And I will never wish for that, fine.
And I screamed and fought for you
And I feel nothing. But I hope you do.

You never needed your life
For you could easily die in lie.
And I always hope you'll see
That there's nothing taking you away from me.

You never reached for something more,
You always touched what you bore.
I was so forgiving, I thought you might
Finally see my point of view right.

And you never wished to back down.
You always wanted to be around.
And you never waited for your heart
And you never took anything apart.

I never wanted to forget you
And now I thankfully do.
But not all of me is ready to let go
But I must at last say no.

Born to Run

Hurting no one but himself, dreaming in misbelief
He passes knowing the secrets he released
Giving up everything he deserves
He tries to remember; still he hopes.

His gentle breath stops for a while
And he sees the princess out in the light.
A magical tale holds on while he seeks
The gaze which the supreme truth keeps.

An only word waits inside to be told
And finally she says hello.
He looks at her, finds nothing but love
And then he goes farther, high above.

He wonders now why, from all the human kind
She chose him, a poor soul that'd been too blind.
And then he whispers that whether it's told or done,
He must know deeply that he is born to run.

Why is he there, running in the rain,
With the lonely falling drops, in his hair,
Why isn't the wind that mild today,
Why is he there, trying hard not to stray?

Odd

A pleasant dream comes when you think less
A flattering smile comes with forgiveness
And all your gentle thoughts wash away,
As soon as you come to think of the day.

Your sorrow fades, but its imprints remain;
You forget the need to stay back and obey
And when you try to barely remember
It is your last time to surrender.

Come with the sand, wash away like the sand,
Find the true path, and try to keep it, and
Look for your true lie, cut it with a knife
And bring it to me, your only afterlife.

Loudly Enough

You promised everything you could not get
I lied and threw myself in regret
We weren't, in the end, so tough
And I screamed it inside loudly enough.

I needed the permanent light of trust
It soon was completely covered with dust
I couldn't reach it anymore, hopeless-
I could see nothing but that never wanted darkness.

Loudly enough, I shout a word for you
So I can finally believe we are true
I feel sorrow, grief and pain
Disbelief, misery and shame.

Cold

Fly away, my heart, alone
Forever blind I will be
I couldn't face my soul,
My heart, silently torn apart

Scream, again, the words that had
Made you hold your breath to death
Be quiet, I need the silence within
To make ourselves disappear

Beyond my dreams, there lies the truth
A hidden word, I've kept it long
I cannot fear it much longer
My heart is filling with hunger

I'll show myself, betray the name
I've always kept out in the rain
I made you suffer, dear my love,
Now I know what I have earned

Away, my heart, fly all alone,
Cry less now, there's nothing more
See, the blind is blind to death
I've seen once the rest

They need to see, they need to know
I am guilty, I've gone low
Believe it, I am unprepared
For a life that must be shared

After all, I hope just this
You'll not be able to miss
Me and my all true flaws
Yes, I am the one who falls

But who can save me from them now?
I know you can, but tell me how,
I'm too weak to know what you're about
But please, you need to make me proud.

I'll be so cold, die all alone
And that's my end, it will be shown
To all the people that loved me,
But not at least one did truly

Finally, I've come this time
Cold, and dark, my silence grows
So far you are, my love, but now
I need no thoughts, just to be found

Say your needs, forget the fears
Tell them your last wish
You do not need to be inside
So unforgiving, and so kind.

Mistakes I made,
Tears I've cried,
Nothing more to keep aside
I did things I couldn't bear
And now, forgive me, I don't care

I'll show myself into the light
Cold as I am, I need to fight
As the last minute of my life will pass by
I'll have to close my eyes and die

Reaching

It happened, just once, to be alone
Although my heart wasn't of stone
It kept on waiting, till my heart found
I had a reason to be bound.

In chains have I struggled, in vain,
To pretend I'm there, always and forever
But I knew that wasn't true,
And I knew I was looking for you.

So my loneliness was something strange
Little did I expect you to understand
You seemed to reach my eyes, somehow,
But then you made me change my mind.

You glanced at me, drew back in fear,
When you saw me, me and my tear.
How could you be that ashamed
Of the creation that wears your name?

Perfect Loneliness

There was once a bird
That had flown all over the world,
But tired of knowing no one,
She returned.

When she landed home, she realised
She had left her heart somewhere
Hidden well, deep inside
She knew where it was then.

But after never-ending days of seeking,
She stopped. She kept on waiting
Until now, when she hears whispers
Written deep inside her heart
Left beside someone so dark.