Everything

Sometimes I have no faith or chance
No cause to make myself suffer, to offence
It scares even my darkest thoughts away
But I have to pay, of course I have to pay.

You make me find a place for me
And only a soul, and that soul is free
Unlike mine, yours has love inside
It makes me think I've never been wise.

Gentle, hopeless, I am everything
Everything, inside one heart
It was once enough,
But now, I am nothing.

Little Heartdrops

Only silent seconds I have to bear
Enough pain, I've had enough, I swear.
Closing my shattered daylight into me
I easily start to fear what I cannot see.

They are all there, heartdrops falling
Forbidden, they are calling
They've never ceased, it's clear they won't.
This time, I almost cry, and yet I don't.

My Eyes

Wandering in a lost world
And no love yet to be shown
And I keep escaping and coming back again
And never seeing this unbroken chain.

The blue depth frozen in you
Keeps loving every second that's true
And when I finally let go of you
You wish my eyes were gone through.

I cannot wait my whole life
For something I cannot even try
I'm clumsy and vain and everything you want
But let me go, I cannot be bound.

Why can't you feel my eyes
Deeply in love with yours
Why can't you realise
That they're everything I'm longing for?

And there they go, hardly awake
And keep wandering, will never break
I will never feel myself forgiven
And that is what you have forbidden.

Away from me, the world's soon gone
I'm still here, and never down
The struggle I faced is nothing compared
To your sorrow, broken by faith.

Fade Into Their Sea

Die away, with all your reasons,
Your obscurity of mind and heart
Never escape from the fearsome
Yet intelligent lies of mine.

Cast your way in every light
Enchant them all, dare to
And then let yourself go through
Wish your lonely waves good night.

Do not fall, do not let go
Think of the depth below
They may crush, but you must not
You're the one that really fought.

Blame yourself, you have to
No love is here for you
It's all given, can't get back
Surrender, never attack.

What is all with it, I shan't know
You can't draw back, neither do they
But what can you do if you must pay?
Drown and keep smiling, never say 'no'.

Do Not...

Do not hope for better day
I will crush your dreams, my dear
Don't dare to think of rain
I shall make it disappear.

Do not hope to live in silence
I will gently make you see
That your haunting decadence
Is what keeps you here.

Do not dream of me alone
There is someone you forget
Nothing for the sweet dawn
And for me, everything, yet.

So Wide the World

You are running now, locked by your sorrow
Oh, you didn't want to betray your faith
You cannot even think of the light of tomorrow
You are ashamed of being afraid.

So wide the world, you found your past
In a dark corner, waiting for the promise
You hadn't faced up, it was your last
And there you calmly waited for the demise.

Loved, unbroken, your perfect chain
She was the only one you could believe
Now she's left you, never thought of your pain
And you wonder how you will live.

So wide is the world, you will find someone else.
I am loved already, go ahead and forget
And do not even dare to stop and rest
You never now how far you can get.

Never silent, your heart pounds
And it rises, brighter than the sun
You are cursed with never healing wounds
And there you disappear, you're gone.

So wide the world, you cannot even think
And I am here, always at hand.
But this time, I'm not here to make you sink
And not even to help you, my forgotten friend.

I Died, But I'm Not Leaving

Lonely in me, they are still there
Otherwise, it wouldn't be fair.
How could I learn to face up the storm
And never back down, learn to control?

I tried to send them away, it's done.
I tried to forget my mistakes, I'm gone.
And there are always illusions to keep me alive
When I could easily fade within the sunrise.

I am there, awake and fine
The truth, it will never die.
And I cannot lie, I am lost
This is everything, a ghost.

I am forgotten, I am betrayed
I should've gone away, but I stayed.
I am sorry to disappoint your love
But I cannot leave, I'll just fly above.

Finding the Never-Told Truth

There'd been always something in your eyes
I wanted to believe in what I recognised
But I was too stubborn to reach beyond
Your shield of the truth you never told.

Lonely inside, my deep soul was free.
And you needed as well to know me
But I didn't show what I was made for
So you just passed it over.

But now I scream, cry and lie
For nothing less than a smile
But nothing's left, I need to give up
Your never-told truth you've locked up.

I must keep looking for you deep there, somehow
And yes, I love to make myself fall down.
I'll run away, someday, evaporate
And never make me feel that hate.

And if you save me from that pain
I'll make you think it's been in vain.
I deserve everything, warm or cold
Because I've never found what you've never told.