It is rather easy to verify why lonely beings have not the slightest predisposition to get acquainted directly with others. And since I am significantly lonelier than others, which are of course among those who are not lonely at all, I am eager to define once more what cannot be defined by even the sharpest mind of all times.
Which is, usually, not precise, for several minds compete and try to surpass each other in the battle of nothing.
The two main ways to enter life and the world, as a general notion, are different - evidently. The first, easiest way is that of letting oneself float in something untitled, until, finally, one reaches the point of no return - maturity.
The second way, my way, that is, relates somehow to the retirement of wildlife when conditions are no longer, let us say, pleasant. While some prefer not to bother themselves with ethical stuff and common sense, and would rather lose themselves than fight, I try to pass without even touching this critical stage of life. Boring, I know, yet quite true.
For me and others that have the same way of thinking. To others, I wish you turned your eyes from these words, for I write them so that you cannot get a strong idea about this.
But I am tired, and it is not long before I've run out of twisty words, and maybe there are more genuine people out there than I think there are, and perhaps I am only lying and persuading myself with this stupid nonsense which I prefer to call rational statements.
Either way, I was just trying to express why I keep myself away from others.
Watching them grow, and loving them in my own way, which I believe is right, and not having to explain myself, and occassionally finding indeed a way to explain myself! Just as Miss Gloom once said, if only I could stay away from the play and never have to give reasons for watching it, this is my point.
But no, I have a shape, and a name, and I have to justify everything I do in front of the others, but what they do not understand is that their actions give them so shining a shield, that I would rather lose myself in watching them, than act like a fellow character in this play called life.
