You never...

You never deserved my love,
Never had something to die for
You said we all slowly rot
While saying that you would not.

You never thought about me
And you never were free
I had to struggle within my own heart
And you weren't even taking part.

You never wanted to be mine,
And I will never wish for that, fine.
And I screamed and fought for you
And I feel nothing. But I hope you do.

You never needed your life
For you could easily die in lie.
And I always hope you'll see
That there's nothing taking you away from me.

You never reached for something more,
You always touched what you bore.
I was so forgiving, I thought you might
Finally see my point of view right.

And you never wished to back down.
You always wanted to be around.
And you never waited for your heart
And you never took anything apart.

I never wanted to forget you
And now I thankfully do.
But not all of me is ready to let go
But I must at last say no.

Born to Run

Hurting no one but himself, dreaming in misbelief
He passes knowing the secrets he released
Giving up everything he deserves
He tries to remember; still he hopes.

His gentle breath stops for a while
And he sees the princess out in the light.
A magical tale holds on while he seeks
The gaze which the supreme truth keeps.

An only word waits inside to be told
And finally she says hello.
He looks at her, finds nothing but love
And then he goes farther, high above.

He wonders now why, from all the human kind
She chose him, a poor soul that'd been too blind.
And then he whispers that whether it's told or done,
He must know deeply that he is born to run.

Why is he there, running in the rain,
With the lonely falling drops, in his hair,
Why isn't the wind that mild today,
Why is he there, trying hard not to stray?

Odd

A pleasant dream comes when you think less
A flattering smile comes with forgiveness
And all your gentle thoughts wash away,
As soon as you come to think of the day.

Your sorrow fades, but its imprints remain;
You forget the need to stay back and obey
And when you try to barely remember
It is your last time to surrender.

Come with the sand, wash away like the sand,
Find the true path, and try to keep it, and
Look for your true lie, cut it with a knife
And bring it to me, your only afterlife.

Loudly Enough

You promised everything you could not get
I lied and threw myself in regret
We weren't, in the end, so tough
And I screamed it inside loudly enough.

I needed the permanent light of trust
It soon was completely covered with dust
I couldn't reach it anymore, hopeless-
I could see nothing but that never wanted darkness.

Loudly enough, I shout a word for you
So I can finally believe we are true
I feel sorrow, grief and pain
Disbelief, misery and shame.

Cold

Fly away, my heart, alone
Forever blind I will be
I couldn't face my soul,
My heart, silently torn apart

Scream, again, the words that had
Made you hold your breath to death
Be quiet, I need the silence within
To make ourselves disappear

Beyond my dreams, there lies the truth
A hidden word, I've kept it long
I cannot fear it much longer
My heart is filling with hunger

I'll show myself, betray the name
I've always kept out in the rain
I made you suffer, dear my love,
Now I know what I have earned

Away, my heart, fly all alone,
Cry less now, there's nothing more
See, the blind is blind to death
I've seen once the rest

They need to see, they need to know
I am guilty, I've gone low
Believe it, I am unprepared
For a life that must be shared

After all, I hope just this
You'll not be able to miss
Me and my all true flaws
Yes, I am the one who falls

But who can save me from them now?
I know you can, but tell me how,
I'm too weak to know what you're about
But please, you need to make me proud.

I'll be so cold, die all alone
And that's my end, it will be shown
To all the people that loved me,
But not at least one did truly

Finally, I've come this time
Cold, and dark, my silence grows
So far you are, my love, but now
I need no thoughts, just to be found

Say your needs, forget the fears
Tell them your last wish
You do not need to be inside
So unforgiving, and so kind.

Mistakes I made,
Tears I've cried,
Nothing more to keep aside
I did things I couldn't bear
And now, forgive me, I don't care

I'll show myself into the light
Cold as I am, I need to fight
As the last minute of my life will pass by
I'll have to close my eyes and die